Provocative Lookbook #4: Soon
I was getting exhausted and my photos showed it.
For the first lookbook:
For the last one:
So I ended the last lookbook with a mention that 2022 would bring “…more candid shots, but it was like I needed to get a tangled ball of yarn unraveled ASAP. I was struggling with the balance of my connections, my marriage, and my own sensual journey. And I didn’t know where to start with my internal knots.”
There’s really no playbook in discovering and celebrating your sensuality as a mid-life mom coming out of purity culture. I was easily growing mentally and emotionally exhausted over the tug-of-war between beaming with pride, admiration, and appreciation of my body, enjoying the confidence on full display, and sometimes feeling inappropriate in this enjoyment because I loved sharing my photos with special friends and my husband.
I had already gotten over the silliness and insecurity factors that usually are the biggest roadblocks for women thinking of or starting off taking personal sensual photos.
“I look dumb. Who poses like that?”
“I hate my nose and look at my stretch marks.”
Candid shots, and the normalcy of just taking them, really help counter those negative thoughts.